Sad

Tonight just like the other night, I can not bring my self to sleep…

Read one article about the Boston bombing suspect, this early evening, caused some sad-complicated effects in me. I keep on wondering and try to understand the feeling.

While listening “Ben” – Michael Jakcson song and trying to follow the lyrics, I found it is match with the complicated-sad feeling that affect me from reading the article above.

The song told about a man, probably kids, whose name is Ben, who seems experienced hard life, feel have no one, and not wanted by anyone, in anywhere.  The second part of the song illustrated how much Ben have those feeling. Thinking about the kids that running here and there with the feeling that he or she is not wanted anywhere is sad. Thinking that: there is a kids that bear such as a sadness is really painful for me.

I do not know how my brain related this song with the current issue in this world, I just think there are already too many “Ben” in this world. Too many kids, too many minor(underage) people that have this kind of sadness, feeling worthless and not wanted by this world.

War issue, nuclear power, bomb, terorist, all of things that usually being news headlines  spread so much fear and hatred around the world.

The article  I mention above entitled Dear Dzhokhar, I Can’t Hate You. This article is written by a family of Boston Bombing victim, the writer is telling that no matter how much sad he felt  as his family is one of the participant in this event, he can not make himself hate him(the suspect). The writer saw the suspect as a kid that can make wrong decision etc.

After reading it, all I can do is agreed. without trying to defend anyone , I just feel like all this issue bring so much hatred in the world. And hatred only make people being unfair in judging others.  Just as the lyrics said:

Ben most people would turn you away
I don’t listen to a word they say
They don’t see you as I do I wish they would try to
I’m sure they’d think again if they had a friend like Ben

in my opinion hatred always avoid people to judge other fairly, even worse make people don’t want even try to be fair.  I am certain if everyone at least try to be fair and not jumping into conclusion, even though the action is wrong, we could at least know what reason that bring the action. because understanding the reason is important, not for justify the action, more for preventing the same event to be happen in the future.

I always believe that even for the worst crime in this world, he /she must have the good part in his/ her heart. And there is at least one person that sing those part of the song for the crime, ask the world to at least trying to see the problem from other perspective.

I tell my self there is no human in this world who have perfectly dark heart as in other side no one have completely angelic and pure heart. People made mistake and it just it is. and mistakes does not erase other good things that he/she made.

I really wish the number of “Ben” in this world will be decrease, there are already many of them in various conflict place in the world.

Ben the two of us need look no more
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own I’ll never be alone
And you my friend will see you’ve got a friend in me

Ben you’re always running here and there
You feel you’re not wanted anywhere
If you ever look behind and don’t like what you find
There’s something you should know you’ve got a place to go

I used to say “I and me”
Now it’s us now it’s we

Ben most people would turn you away
I don’t listen to a word they say

They don’t see you as I do I wish they would try to
I’m sure they’d think again if they had a friend like Ben

I am still learning to be fair to other…